Out on jobsite- superintendent and coworker rode out on a Lowe’s run… I’m sitting over the trench we’ve been working in with my foot dangling over the pipe that I’m sposed to make sure the foundation guys don’t crack when they dig their ‘footer’ through the area where our pipes cross… Trash has been picked up, tools have been organized, and come lunch time (45 minutes) I’m going to go eat… So much on my mind lately, but most stemming from self-imposed heartaches… but, so what, man up and get over it, right !? Like multiple mentors have said, this is sposed’ to be the most exciting time of my life… and it is… but, a shadow has been allowed to loom for some time now… Thank You Jesus for deliverance… and the steadfast determination to abide in it.
The afternoon was relatively relaxed at work… aside from the fact I forgot to strap down ladders after throwing them on the rack of company truck… not one of my shining moments…but, this moment was less about me and more of understanding the grace that was extended to me by my coworkers (not reborn) though the ladders spilled all over the highway and I was on the way home when crew-boss text me… thank YOu, Lord, for helping me to be understanding and compassionate toward my coworkers.
Proverbs- 16:7, 8, 9, 16, 17, 23, 24, 25
Psalms- 16:1, 5, 6, 8, 11
Thank You, Father, for helping me keep my heart stayed on You… every day i precisely that- a day– a day You have permitted us to awaken to, to live, to lift up our heads, our eyes, to behold Your glory… Your will be done, Father, I will trust You- by the power of the Holy Ghost… I will not return to a yoke of bondage, in Jesus name.
Proverbs 10:7 The memory of the just is blessed, but the name of the wicked shall rot.
Proverbs 10:19 In the multitude of words there wanteth not sin: but he that refraineth his lips is wise.
Proverbs 10:25 As the whirlwind passeth, so is the wicked no more: but the righteous is an everlasting foundation.
Proverbs 10:32 The lips of the righteous know what is acceptable: but the mouth of the wicked speaketh frowardness.
It’s almost that time [work]… the weather is ‘muggy’… mom used to say that all the time when we [kids] were younger… The ‘mugginess’ has certainly made for the best slip’n slides at work. (Mud everywhere). The jobs going to get done, today, God willing… Class at 6pm- today is going to be awesome. Thank YOu Lord for Your covering- Your armor and safety… discernment and wisdom.
Proverbs 3:7 Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the Lord and depart from evil.
Proverbs 3:11 My son, despise not the chastening of the Lord; neither be weary of His correction.
Proverbs 3:17 Her ways are ways of pleasantness and all her paths are peace.
Proverbs 3:26 For the Lord shall be thy confidence, and shall keep thy foot from being taken.
Thank You Lord for love, grace, and mercy… helping me live honorably… with integrity.
Made the best decision I knew to make concerning an individual that was invited over by another man in the house… a man, who I might add, consistently attempts to play dumb and play me for stuppider when I hold him accountable- then I tote around the weight that I was never intended to carry… sometimes, God forgive me, and Lord knows I’ve tried to just turn a blind eye to some of the things that happen sometimes, but that’s ASS- backwards- cowardly and pits me just as effed up as the ‘perp; individual committing the offense. Maybe, tomorrow I’ll draw more from this.. but as for now… it’s time to rock the cradle… this baby is sleepy and the a.m. comes quickly… thank You Lord for your love and tender care.
The voice of the Lord is powerful, the voice of the Lord is full of majesty.
Another week is passed and has left my hair on end as it were a whirlwind had come about… it’s 8:25pm… I’m laying it down… there’s an imaginary turbulence meddling in my family that is more so in my head…. either way it’s making me sick… not even going to go ‘there’ right now… working has been great, over-all, new schedule- I’m still adjusting to…. had a cookout at the the jobsite with some plumbers…lately the topics of discussion have revolved around scattered bits of politics, eating people, and the history of people who did, and how companies hire their employees… by ‘lately’ I’m only speaking of the last two days, and yes, I did mean -literally eating people…. Going from and environment of ‘all people’ seeking relationship with Christ to ‘chance’ encounters with people who know the Lord has been one of excitement and anxiety… mostly because my finding myself in minor engagements/interactions I’m unsure how to respond to somethings… but I guess that’s why the word says to work out your salvation daily.
Thank You Father for waking me this morning- filling my lungs with the breathe of life, providing me with the will and desire to face the day.
He that hath no rule over his own spirit, is like a city that is broken down and without walls.
The secret of the Lord is with them that fear Him; and He will shew them His covenant.
Shew me thy ways, O Lord, teach me thy paths.
All the paths of the Lord are mercy and truth unto such as keep His covenant and His testimonies. For thy name’s sake, O Lord, pardon mine iniquity; for it is great.
Unlike the rest of my stay, here at the Gideon House, my morning schedule is shaping up more and more… but my evening schedule is going to need some serious work… Thank You Lord for deliverance from confusion and thank You for stability.
Father God, I admit, these next few days will be intense considering the schedule change with the new career and all, but it all pales in comparison with what my friend’s family is going through. Lord, I pray I spend no time griping or complaining about anything… considering this marvelous opportunity You’ve granted me, despite my shortcomings, I know it’s because of Your Sn and His actions alone… thank You for showing me truth… instilling the perfect fear for You in my heart, that I don’t abandon the gospel.
Thank You for helping me rest and awaken to serve You first and utilize my occupation for Your good, Lord— thank You for the patience You’ve given me, and opening my eyes and ears.