October 18, 2017

10:44am

Out on jobsite- superintendent and coworker rode out on a Lowe’s run… I’m sitting over the trench we’ve been working in with my foot dangling over the pipe that I’m sposed to make sure the foundation guys don’t crack when they dig their ‘footer’ through the area where our pipes cross… Trash has been picked  up, tools have been organized, and come lunch time (45 minutes) I’m going to go eat… So much on my mind lately, but most stemming from self-imposed heartaches… but, so what, man up and get over it, right !? Like multiple mentors have said, this is sposed’ to be the most exciting time of my life… and it is… but, a shadow has been allowed to loom for some time now… Thank You Jesus for deliverance… and the steadfast determination to abide in it.

9:21pm

The afternoon was relatively relaxed at work… aside from the fact I forgot to strap down ladders after throwing them on the rack of company truck… not one of my shining moments…but, this moment was less about me and more of understanding the grace that was extended to me by my coworkers (not reborn) though the ladders spilled all over the highway and I was on the way home when crew-boss text me… thank YOu, Lord, for helping me to be understanding and compassionate toward my coworkers.

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October 17, 2017

5:26am

Proverbs 17:1, 9, 10, 12, 22, 24, 27, 28

Psalms 17:3, 5, 7, 8, 15!

Outreach question pg. 195 (Overcomer workbook.. Personal enrichment literature)

Note to self… work on boundaries.  I have boundaries, but I believe I use them the wrong way. Not necessarily boundaries intended to keep one from drinking, smoking, etc… but boundaries, in general, to maintain my sanity… boundaries pertaining to interactions with those in the world, mostly… I’ve got no problem speaking up, but it’s the whole art of not making a situation worse that needs fine-tuning…

12:39pm

Short time before checking out of work… God is good all the time and it won’t be but a few minutes before going to school. Day is going well… need to tighten up on the house/apt. search, though… feeling hopeful, though. I’ma see what’s happening when I get off work. Thank YOu, Father for an open door.

9:20pm

Tonight is a night that I got a sincere impulse to do wrong… allowing myself to be tugged to making a withdrawal (atm) that I had no reason to make at all. It was after 8 p.m. Four times my card refused to be read… not because money was not available… but because a connection could not be established. (to bank)_….. Even when I let go Lord, You hold me up. Please forgive me and thank You for bringing me peace, or helping me receive it, rather.

October 15, 2017

9:35pm

Quote that states: character of a man determined during times of turmoil, distress, peril??? (Find it…)

Notes and points for speech:

Explain how HOH has been instrumental in showing a man how to live out faith practically… life does not quit… it ebbs and flows- program is designed to show us how to move with the current and adjust our sails accordingly… solidifying that work which has been started in us. (Maybe, personalize this more?)

Examples of times where things were tense. God’s grace and mercy.

Everyone was a working component of a team… that has made their contribution to moving our lives toward being virtuous men… men of principle, values, and integrity- that can gladly go to work everyday knowing they are part of a greater whole… that believe in such intangibles as hope, justice, and equality, and the importance of sharing— by the authority of Him by which we were sent, the “Good News”

Thank You Lord for safe travels home and consecrating me to You… relinquishing every last bit of every soul-tie- that threatens my relationship with You… strengthen me against this temptation that has encroached me… and thank You for helping me abide in the authority of the scriptures.

 

 

October 14, 2017

10:11pm

Between today and yesterday- there was a good bit of driving done- thank You; Lord, for keeping me safe and getting me to my destination safely…  I’m with the family- we’re watching t.v.- it’s been a few months since I’ve seen my parents and brothers… I’ve missed them- and this is a good feeling. I really have missed them… In the morning- we will go to church together… my mom, youngest brother, and I…

It’s interesting how God will reacquaint you with people or bring them into your life where you can see them, and they can see you, and you can be a testimony to them just by being in front of them… for example- there are places that I can simply ‘not venture’ back into because it’d be a lack of judgement on my part… but on multiple occasions my path has crossed with individuals from my past where if we’d been a minute off – we’d have never hit each other. (People that I should never or would never have ever ever ever had run back into… like, literally makes absolutely no sense whatsoever how we have crossed paths again; apart from God) Nonetheless, God has been good to us– and His timing is the only timing. Thank You Lord.

October 13, 2017

5:21am

After spreading the cheese of brotherly love over the plains of his cinnaraisin bagel-  he pondered the road trip excursion he’d be making later that afternoon. Amid restless thoughts of getting high, picking up a prostitute, and going to do a side-job that morning, to earn a few extra dollars… he pulled his bible close, for the early morning devotion he’s done every morning for more than a few months now. (((((note:::::book idea)))))

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Proverbs 13:3- He that keepeth his mouth keepeth his life: but he that openeth wide his lips shall have destruction.

Proverbs 13:7- There is that maketh himself rich, yet hath nothing: there is that maketh himself poor, yet hath great riches.

Proverbs 13:15- Good understanding giveth favour: but the way of transgressors is hard.

Proverbs 13:17- A wicked messenger falleth into mischief: but a faithful ambassador is health.

Proverbs 13:20- He that walketh with wise men shall be wise: but a companion of fools shall be destroyed.

Proverbs 13:22- A good man leaveth an inheritance to his children’s children : and the wealth of the sinner is laid up for the just.

Proverbs 13:25- The righteous eateth to the satisfying of his soul: but the belly of the wicked shall want.

Psalms 13:4- Lest mine enemy say, I have prevailed against him; and those that trouble

Psalms 13:5- But I have trusted in thy mercy; my heart shall rejoice in thy salvation.

Psalms 13: 6- I will sing unto the Lord, because He hath dealt bountifully with me.

8:53pm

Thank You, Lord for safe travels, and a safe weekend. Getting me home safe.

October 11, 2017

9:32pm

Definitely passed bed-time-  but shower was mandatory… went to church straight from work, and home from there… Laying down now- and the time to start on speech is way past due… a speech that’s primary purpose (self-imposed) will be to exclaim of the wonderful things that God has done in my life. The speech must adequately thank each of the individuals who played a part in grooming me to be the man I am becoming. If I can manage to deliver two lines a day then I will be making better progress than I am today… it would be more than a truth to say I am procrastinating. So, I’ve stated all of this to say that I am setting goal to start tomorrow… HA! and long term goal of 1 week to have called at least three apartment places to inquire about housing… by this time next week. As for speech- that was a joke… tonight MUST be the night… and the lines:::  The preceding months that have acquiesced to today, transpired, people I’ve met, devotions we’ve shared, there is one undeniable-indisputable fact that justifies every decision that would never ever ever ever have been made under ordinary circumstances. Decisions that were ever so subtle beckoning to turn from any life I had ever known and being instilled with the courage to do so, pursue a new life- unlike that which I have ever known… that fact is the presence of love. Love from whom God is the origin and whom He is……..{{{{to be continued}}}}}

Thank You Lord Jesus, my deliverer and Savior- You have kept me, You alone- have pursued and protected me.

October 10, 2017

5:29am

Proverbs 10:7 The memory of the just is blessed, but the name of the wicked shall rot.

Proverbs 10:19 In the multitude of words there wanteth not sin: but he that refraineth his lips is wise.

Proverbs 10:25 As the whirlwind passeth, so is the wicked no more: but the righteous is an everlasting foundation.

Proverbs 10:32 The lips of the righteous know what is acceptable: but the mouth of the wicked speaketh frowardness.

5:48am

It’s almost that time [work]… the weather is ‘muggy’… mom used to say that all the time when we [kids] were younger… The ‘mugginess’ has certainly made for the best slip’n slides at work. (Mud everywhere). The jobs going to get done, today, God willing… Class at 6pm- today is going to be awesome. Thank YOu Lord for Your covering- Your armor and safety… discernment and wisdom.