April 26, 2017

6:06pm

     Good grief…  prolly shouldn’t have crammed them dogs (hotdogs) down, right before service… The bros are watching First 48… that’s some pretty morbid stuff.. leaving soon… tonight is the last night of ‘revival’.

     *Bethlehem (House of Bread?)  ; maybe I’ve heard this before, I think, but I was reminded recently by my mentor.

     Church will begin shortly… we have about twenty mins… messed up *for real…with them hot dogs… during the day, snuck a few minutes in with the director to seek out how he may be able to assist me with the handling of my interactions with another individual… we deducted that I do care how others perceive me and that I can allow any misconceptions of my motives or attributes to deter my productivity (with respect to relationship and communication.), and that’s not acceptable in regard to leadership… so there’s a recurring thing happening…( e.g. holding beach ball under water..)… we will get through this… I’m decided without a doubt, this will be ‘reeled-in’… and it will be ‘public-knowledge’ where I stand on the matter… there is NO matter… I am the ‘matter’ that will constantly and consistently resort to the use of the resources, faculties that have been made available to me… Not resorting to any outward displays of frustration toward my co-workers… I will develop the discipline it takes (with the help of the Holy Spirit) to seek counsel whenever necessary, at the appointed times, or appropriate times.

4-26-17 Continued; 9:14pm

Fresh off the altar… out in the foyer of the church… I’m so late to get home… sposed’ to be in by 9pm… so, I’m not justified simply because I was praying, but I’m banking on all of everything coming together as it should… regardless the outcome… I’ll be taking those consequences/ rewards *in stride*… at least, I think that’s how the saying goes… even as I’m seated here in the foyer I can feel layers of darkness lifting… and a softening of the heart.

April 19, 2017

Wednesday

6:48pm

          Spent a beautiful day at the shop constructing ‘headers’ for the houses that will commence construction in May. We got a new recruit yesterday–> one who’s intake/acceptance was maybe controversial to some, and surprise to say the least… but, is a testament to the belief ‘what door God opens, no man can shut.’ I’ve come to terms with that, and it’s a blessing to have gained the maturity to have an appreciation in God’s working in other’s lives. I’ve very little history with this man…<service is beginning now!>

8:29pm

     Service is over, service was great. We did not have our usual speaker (Pastor) today, but another man… I’d forgotten all about the revival services to take place next week… starting this sunday… our speaker tonight spoke to us regarding preparation of our hearts for revival… repentance, and new life in the church. As well as why the church needs revival for new relationships, new business, new life, increase in love expressed…

     I’m not sure what to expect at our revival meeting, but I will be praying for repentance in my heart, and a heart broken for Christ that will receive His Spirit in a new way… Thank You Father for timing and direction, bringing to surface any hindrances and walking me through the ‘letting go’, so that the way may be fruitful, and I am an effective/active member of the church.