July 8, 2017

3:42pm

Happy B-Day! Self! Officially 28 years old day… and that’s bout’ surreal to me as it was turning 25… There’s a pot of coffee brewing, I’m waiting on (Bob Mentor) to get here… we’re gon’ have a cup of coffee and ‘catch up’  a lil’ bit, talk about some scriptures… sing a few songs… (very much looking forward to this… thank You Jesus, for Your disciples.)

After the devotion time with Bob, someone was feeling ‘live’/festive, so they bought some chicken, etc. to throw  on the grill so i’m stoked.’

5:07pm

*Not perfect.

6:25pm

Hey Sun!!! (aka – Big Ball of fire in the sky… You are probably one of the greatest exclamations of God’s glory (in plain sight) a testament of His might and power… It’s  a privilege to exist alongside you… with the privilege to testify of His majesty… Our God is unlimited, He made you, and He made me, He made us… He gave you purpose, He also created me with purpose… By Him do we all consist… People talk about the sun burning out… they speak of the capacity of your doing harm to all of mankind or neglecting humanity… truth is- You are obedient to your master- and you will perform no such thing outside of your creator’s design… thank you for your testimony (sun)… you are finite, as am I (flesh), but praise be to God for that glory that has yet to be revealed in us. All that has sustained us and held us in the balance… Thank You Father for Your infinite glory… for everything that is working together… for us… for Your will… thank You for Your faithfulness… thank You Father for helping me live a life by Your grace and mercy to show myself approved.

July 5, 2017

9:25am

Waiting patiently for my monthly evaluation, to take place… I’m the last guy, aside from our newest addition. Pretty much waiting for the hammer to fall… I hate to say that, but this month has been very trying for me… but, it’s a great day, and I trust God to assist me in standing/sitting still and accepting correction.

9:02pm

Short day, good day, good class… great service… I was dragg’in a lil’ by service time…(Wednesday Night Service) just tired… tomorrow we will be working with volunteers… up early, but I’m actually learning to love those mornings… now that I think of it, my Opa (granddad-mom’s side)  made it a point to get up every morning 3am and go to work for over 20 years… working with the Postal service… He was a man people could count on… He was faithful and loyal to a fault… that’s pretty much how I frame all the men and women in my family… the greatest bits and pieces that I have of them from birth, …I’m making a conscious decision to hold fast to them/ to see the best in them… I suppose, the devil thinks he has a very strong chance at deceiving each of us into ignorance and separation from God (confusion amid family members)… but i’m not ignorant of his devices… s’why I must do all I can to stand- and after that- continue to stand. i am being trained up… I am a child of God. I am a child of light. I am a child of hope… and the captives will be liberated.

 

 

July 4, 2017

9:42pm

Thank You for liberty, Lord- thank You for life and waking me up this morning… F3 group was monumental..74 participants! It was awesome, we were all over downtown… A serious privilege, it was…

Sitting at kitchen table and having breakfast and coffee… praying the Lord help me to not take things overly serious as I should take my salvation… if I spent half the energy I spent trying not to be misunderstood or explaining my perspective, into my relationship with God… *phew*… might actually be working on something, then… straight up!!! Today, is a good day the Lord has made—thank You Jesus for helping me compliment the kingdom- not tear it down.

4:26pm

Few speed bumps, but all together it’s been relatively chill… at the house… guys are prepp’in dinner, and we’ll see what’s up after that. I’ma actually proceed on coast, for real, and that’s for everyone to know… I’ma focus on myself- which is what should be doing at all times, but it should be life in respect to Christ… and not toward everyone else… gee, that’s exhausting… cause’ everybody seems to have their opinion for how you should live life, or how they could live your life better for you… that really eats at me… but I am definitely seeking God’s help in re-configuring my thoughts and heart to live in some kind of practical peace in regard to this cyclical debacle.

10:45pm

Life doesn’t get easier,

we get stronger…

(quote a guy shouted out while we were working out (F3))

July 2, 2017

3:28pm

Here’s what I do know, Father… and that’s that Your son come and gave His life for us… true story… also, that I am a sinner- bought back from death–redeemed by the blood of the perfect sacrifice made by Your son… there is no thing I can do to give myself life- death was defeated by Christ- and His righteousness alone… the work of God is faith in His son, and to believe, continually… claiming that restoration, clinging to that hope, claiming His grace, His mercy; but not without begging that work of repentance performed in our  hearts by the Holy Spirit…

No matter how good it’s going, no matter how blessed I am; without the knowledge of where the blessings come from… that happiness is not sustained… we are not self-sustaining… peace comes from relationship with the Father… time spent in His presence…acknowledging His work in us… He gets all the glory. Father, You get all the glory!

This afternoon was good… the whole church went out after church… we sat, we talked, fellowshipped, played softball, there was stuff for everyone to do… (kids, adults)… the eating was good, service was good… we were taught about the hearts of the sons (parable_ lost sons… one the prodigal, and one who had a resentment toward his brother… (older brother in that parable)… we also talked about the samaritan and the two commandments… to love God with our heart, soul, body, and mind.. to love our neighbors as ourselves… bout’ to go park it for a few minutes before I head out to an evening devotion.

July 1, 2017

Today is July 1st, also known as the day of Canada’s Independence… ‘shout-out’ to my Canadian friend, (aka Bill Nye/ aka Tim Allen…  🙂 !!! today, being the 150th anniversary of all things Canadian!!!

Today was a full day… upon waking we, (self and roomies), went to play ball for a couple hours… came home, got clean, went downtown… called my ‘Goddaughter’ who I’m seeking to cultivate a relationship with… spoke with my cousin (Her mama)… came home, downloaded some music, made plans to stay after church tomorrow for a function (fun, food, softball, etc.) Looking forward to that, so, I really need to be going to sleep… Past two days have been great… but having fun can be exhausting… definitely going to need to rest some tomorrow evening.

Feeling relatively peaceful, it’s been nice to get out… God is good and His children are exceedingly blessed. Speaking of children, my brother/friend and his wife, delivered a baby about 2 hrs. ago… He sent me a pic of his wife and the baby and I was speechless, like, whoa! Cause, I spoke with him earlier today, and it is insane to know that God has blessed them with a living, breathing, little person… it’s unreal to say the least… Thank You Jesus for having blessed my brother and his wife… it truly is incredible to witness what you have accomplished in their lives. Thank You Lord Jesus for the futures prepared for us all.

June 29, 2017

8:17am

Week is ending, day is done… got my Little Caesar’s… bro and I are kinda’ watching a show about some guys tracking wolverines… tomorrow morning we will be hitting some kind of river… where we will be kayaking… I’ve never been kayaking… and it sounds very exciting… we will all be going… a time where we can all kinda’ unwind… and stretch out a lil’bit…

Had an appointment today to speak with one of my counselors (through an outside organization); to discuss my ‘lack of chill’… That appointment was put off and yet to be rescheduled… I called and spoke with my counselor, (to reschedule) but there were some other errands that needed to be run… so hopefully, next week I can have the appointment rescheduled… and I’m belittling the crap out of the issue… I was tied up with the worst knot in my chest and stomach around 11am… it’s stress… I’m sure of it.. the ‘movie’ is starting now… but , yea- I need to seek God and yea’, I need prayer, straight up.

11pm

Yes, I most probably-definitely should have been asleep by now… Now that I’ve made it to my room, I’m calming my mind and relaxing, setting alarms, and music for the a.m… Tomorrow is going to be incredibly interesting. Thank You Lord for a good time… and leading me to the ‘Chill’, Father.

June 28, 2017

4:40ish P.m.

Shout Out! J.E. I love You Bro…aka Bopete.  I’ll see you in a little while… God bless Your family.. Thank You Jesus for peace in the hearts of all friends and family… thank You for giving us beauty for ashes Lord! You are and forever will be worthy of praise. Thank You for new life in the hearts of Your believers… Thank You for encouraging the heart of all younger brothers Lord… increasing their courage… and the lives You have set for them… 4:45pm

We are heading to church in about an hour and a half… class went well… the hour we spent in the shop was a ‘trying’ one… dunno’ why… things just ran the way they did… some kind of communication misfire… I dunno’… I was more than glad to get out of there, today, though… Tech classes were good… teacher was able to explain to us more about some of the companies in the area that are recruiting reliable workers… pretty stoked about that, I am… if I can manage to find some ‘chill’ I think I’ll be fine… hehehe… I’m still in pursuit of the ‘chill’… Throughout the week, thus far, I’ve accrued a lil’ bit of insight… looking forward to this weekend…. the house’s White Water Escapade we’ll be taking part in…