September 1, 2017

7:10pm

Your lil’ brother got a job today-

that will one day lead to a career-

long days, long nights-

spent pouring out tears-

no matter the destination

just desperate to get away from here-

here, being that place of solitude and isolation-

finding warmth in the lies that he’s in control…

he’s not in control

he’s suffocating his soul

choking out his livelihood-

cut off from the life source…

from the day he chose his own course and refused the lit torch-

showing him which way to go-

humbling his wayward soul… distracted by the usual-

why not be reborn ‘unusual’.

Cost you, like, nothing to what it cost Our Father everything…

dabble not in the darkness, concerned with the lesser things…

our affections on the heavenly…

Jesus pave the way for me…

do for them- what you’ve done for me

laboring toward eternity.

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August 30, 2017

5:09pm

So, uhhh… was kinda’ spinning circles in the house…walked upstairs…downstairs…upstairs…downstairs…feeling great! but just kinda’ walking around…picking things up…then putting them down… I’ve got just a few moments before rides pulling up to the house…and the newest addition to the house (member) and myself will shuffle out the door…to go to church. Sitting now at the kitchen table- occasionally glancing out the window to see my car parked out in the parking lot while “Don’ Hemi” (youngest bro) text me pictures of his nose that was recently operated on… stitched up and everything!! Not bragging, but brother has been through the Dawg-On ringer…

God, when it comes to renewal, You get the ‘TEN’ , hands down… cause’ I feel like I’ve lived at least, I repeat, at least five lives… and this one, by far, exceeds each of them. You’ve not only revived and renewed me but You’ve substantially increased my desire to have life and be content through and during any and all circumstances… perilous times will come, I’m sure… but we will endure, Lord… without doubt, without fear… You are Our God… Almighty.

August 29, 2017

12:14pm

Competition? Lord… I’m running… as if I was competing… and, yes, I make mistakes… I grab a weight, here and there, that I don’t even realize I’m carrying… but, Lord as ‘my trainer’ and coach and mentor and brother and friend… You are doing this amazing thing… Help me ‘cling’, Lord, to Your hand, Your garment, all of You.

22:22pm

Thank You Father for keeping us this far.. Thank You for our fellowship (in the house)… so many are suffering Father… not in addiction only… but all over, people are suffering from various circumstances… thank You for using us, Lord… helping us remain useable and helping us see things the way You see them, Jesus… thank YOu for the work YOu are doing in the hearts of my family, friends, and enemies… may my heart’s prayer be that none should perish.

August 28, 2017

5:20pm

Hallelujah!… Got resources… the Lord is blessing His children, the Lord is call’in His children! Gathering us under His wings. He would that none should perish… Every second is a blessing! Every mistakes been a lesson. I can hardly imagine a life where the Lord did not lay out things as plainly as He has… I mean… who saw this coming??? Not me… Had no idea I’d go from literally grating the remnants of heart I had on concrete and rubble, to a change of residence, to these relationships, to the growth (spiritual, physical, mental), the sensitivity, renewal, perspective on life that’s both profitable and progressive. The support is unreal… for real.

So, today, I found out that I’ma be getting on with the (DubbSquared) company… Hiring process (paperwork), Friday… (This Friday) my class is going to end just in time for the next class I need… bout’ the same time I’m starting work… insurance (auto) is gon’ be paid tomorrow by my own hand, (not without God making this possible), all the way up 6 months… and I’ll be in a car by Wednesday. No Joke!

9:50pm

Lord God, You are good to us… thank You for Your grace and mercy… thank You for helping us remember to pray… thwarting the enemy’s plan to divide the house.

August 27, 2017

8:21pm

It’ll be louder in here, momentarily… my bros. will be home, fresh out of the church they visited tonight… I’ve just gotten home from the ‘OC:… the chapel was pretty much -full-… there was about 30 men there, and these 30 men are in their first 30 days of their program at the ‘OC’, and many of them took their first steps toward living lives devoted to Christ. Just to be present and see these things taking place, meeting new people, seeing the gratitude… it’s all a blessing in itself… seeing God working on the hearts of these men replenishes and refreshes my spirit…

There’s so much going to happen and so soon that I can hardly believe it. In time, I truly believe my life is going to take on a very different likeness than one I have ever anticipated…

Man… God is good. I had about a lb. of beef potted up, but realized I had no tomato sauce… I was ‘messed up’… Ha! After the thought dawned on me to check other cabinets around the house… I found some tomato sauce! I was so excited, so yea, we’re doing the spaghetti thing tonight! Yesss!!!

Thank You father for nourishment and life abundant and healthy relationships.

August 26, 2017

7:31am

Good morning Jesus!.. Today is Saturday and the weather is absolutely fantastic… Fall is slowly but surely setting in and as old as I am (28), I can’t help but detect the nostalgia that is associated with the ‘state fair’ of my youth, fall festivals, and concerts (that I never attended, but always wanted to go to.) :), My past is undeniable, my future is uncertain, and today is unprecedented, but here nonetheless.

Lord, some days I write, for fear that I won’t (write)…some days, I write simply because You never said to stop…some days it’s simply because I have the ability to do so… If nothing more than proof of my existence and more importantly Yours… No matter what this life brings or what this world says, help me never forget Your words and promises to me… How that, ‘none of this is for no reason.’ Every cut, every bruise, chipped tooth, cracked bone, swollen lip, busted knuckle, cold night, wet night, strained muscle, broken relationship, moment of despair, of contrite wandering is for waste or mere points of reference… it is and always will be for Your glory. .. The spirit of the Lord God is upon me; because the Lord hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; He hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound. –Isaiah 61:1

Thank You Lord for every disciple/ servant that walked before us.

August 25, 2017

9:48am

August 2017 has had it’s space in history, and it is surely coming to an end. This month has been a good one… especially with the excitement of the eclipse and getting closer to beginning my career…

Typical Friday, good Friday, bright Friday!!! ‘Cleaning up the house’ Friday… bout’ to go to class- Friday… During class we will probably work on circuit boards… (makeshift boards where we configure circuits and rearrange them, etc.) We got a new guy in today, which is awesome, cause we’ve been meeting him, and working with him, on and off, for a few weeks… he made a commitment to join the house… and we’re all pretty much excited for the guy… because we all have a decent understanding of the opportunities that come with the commitment of living here, and furthermore… serving the Lord.