Okay, ‘you caught me’… I’m sitting in the new Crown Vic’ aka ‘the Cloud’, and fitfully so… while writing this entry… The mentor who seen fit to don me with this vehicle is a generation and 3/4 my senior… (though he drives considerably faster than I do. Ha!) so in many ways he’s the best kinda’ old school… for real for sure, You can’t beat Old School values with a bat… the way he’s taken care of the car, certainly reminds me of my own grandfather (Opa)…
So, yea’, I’m sitting in the car– ‘cak’in’ on a Sunday… a/c is cooling the interior down, (I’m sitting here sweating, looking crazy, maybe, but I’m blessed, highly favored, and excited bout’ my ride… pshhh… I’m sitting on a cloud 😛 )
Thank You, Jesus, no joke no joke… and yea; I might be sitting in the ‘whip’ but don’t get it ravelled… my solace is in the Lord… Father… I mess up and say things I shouldn’t, I think things that are inappropriate… and pretty ghastly to say the least… thank You for deliverance… and the reality that… yea, I may be sitting in the sun in ‘my’ car… but yea’- may the car be sanctified, consecrated to Your work, and the fact that this devotional, and Bible are sitting right beside me never change.
Thank You for Your forgiveness, and sending the man to me, today, who shared with me a good report of that which he’s observed of me (as a young single man)… that inspires a rekindling in his own ministry…
Thank You Lord for Your kindling.
Your lil’ brother got a job today-
that will one day lead to a career-
long days, long nights-
spent pouring out tears-
no matter the destination
just desperate to get away from here-
here, being that place of solitude and isolation-
finding warmth in the lies that he’s in control…
he’s not in control
he’s suffocating his soul
choking out his livelihood-
cut off from the life source…
from the day he chose his own course and refused the lit torch-
showing him which way to go-
humbling his wayward soul… distracted by the usual-
why not be reborn ‘unusual’.
Cost you, like, nothing to what it cost Our Father everything…
dabble not in the darkness, concerned with the lesser things…
our affections on the heavenly…
Jesus pave the way for me…
do for them- what you’ve done for me
laboring toward eternity.
So, uhhh… was kinda’ spinning circles in the house…walked upstairs…downstairs…upstairs…downstairs…feeling great! but just kinda’ walking around…picking things up…then putting them down… I’ve got just a few moments before rides pulling up to the house…and the newest addition to the house (member) and myself will shuffle out the door…to go to church. Sitting now at the kitchen table- occasionally glancing out the window to see my car parked out in the parking lot while “Don’ Hemi” (youngest bro) text me pictures of his nose that was recently operated on… stitched up and everything!! Not bragging, but brother has been through the Dawg-On ringer…
God, when it comes to renewal, You get the ‘TEN’ , hands down… cause’ I feel like I’ve lived at least, I repeat, at least five lives… and this one, by far, exceeds each of them. You’ve not only revived and renewed me but You’ve substantially increased my desire to have life and be content through and during any and all circumstances… perilous times will come, I’m sure… but we will endure, Lord… without doubt, without fear… You are Our God… Almighty.
Competition? Lord… I’m running… as if I was competing… and, yes, I make mistakes… I grab a weight, here and there, that I don’t even realize I’m carrying… but, Lord as ‘my trainer’ and coach and mentor and brother and friend… You are doing this amazing thing… Help me ‘cling’, Lord, to Your hand, Your garment, all of You.
Thank You Father for keeping us this far.. Thank You for our fellowship (in the house)… so many are suffering Father… not in addiction only… but all over, people are suffering from various circumstances… thank You for using us, Lord… helping us remain useable and helping us see things the way You see them, Jesus… thank YOu for the work YOu are doing in the hearts of my family, friends, and enemies… may my heart’s prayer be that none should perish.
August 2017 has had it’s space in history, and it is surely coming to an end. This month has been a good one… especially with the excitement of the eclipse and getting closer to beginning my career…
Typical Friday, good Friday, bright Friday!!! ‘Cleaning up the house’ Friday… bout’ to go to class- Friday… During class we will probably work on circuit boards… (makeshift boards where we configure circuits and rearrange them, etc.) We got a new guy in today, which is awesome, cause we’ve been meeting him, and working with him, on and off, for a few weeks… he made a commitment to join the house… and we’re all pretty much excited for the guy… because we all have a decent understanding of the opportunities that come with the commitment of living here, and furthermore… serving the Lord.
From the ‘jump-stiggity-‘, I was saying it… all this ‘right here’ is not for ‘no reason’ at all… small time- short time… we (me, myself, and I) will be making a break for it… it’s coming up on the time to fly… got news yesterday that the teacher for our Tech classes is doing everything he can to wrap our classes up by September 13th, which, in turn, will get the ball-rolling on beginning my career with one of these electrical contractors… shooting for ‘Dub-Squared’ (self-created alis for company.)
So, very, very, excited that everything is about to ‘pay-off’ and this little current is about to flow into a greater one… I’m not scared- I’m not in a hurry… I am excited and dialing everything in- with the assistance of the Holy Ghost… straight-up!!! I don’t know what’s coming, but I’m more than excited bout’ it- bout’ it!!
Thank You Jesus for paying the price for this new life. Never let this fire of desire- die or subside! Let my cry be heavy, Father… and reach many… Help me follow You… and walk this thang’ out… Let Your will be done Jesus… strengthen my hands- strengthen my knees.
Short time before a mentor of mine scoops me to go out and grab something to eat before service. There’s plenty of food here, but going out with mentor gives us time to work on some kind of relationship and provides us with time of fellowship… fellowship with other believers, I’ve come to understand, is vital to our spiritual livelihood… we are designed to function in community not isolation… (maybe, with different capacities and functions…) but to live completely apart from the ‘body’ is… means death for spiritual growth, and complacency…etc…
Ultimately, all things are at a degree of peace, that I am incredibly grateful for… One of my three brothers (biologicals…aka Bio’s) had a successful and yet trying surgery… Praise God! He is recovering now… another is working on getting registered for another school he is to enroll in. (I’m still incredibly disappointed about the decision that was made…him leaving his initial college of choice… but now is certainly no time to jump on him…) I’ma just stay on my ‘ducks’ and when he happens to glance my way… Maybe, just maybe he’ll see that maybe it’ll do him some good to pay a little bit of attention… to the hard heads that came before him… when the day comes… I just wanna be able to point him straight… and not be caught up in the world myself…
Another of my three brothers is preparing for an upcoming audition for a popular t.v. show… I’m super proud of him and my other brothers… Thank You God for what You’ve done, what You’re doing, and what You’re gonna do, Lord…
Love You in Jesus’ name, Amen.