October 17, 2017

5:26am

Proverbs 17:1, 9, 10, 12, 22, 24, 27, 28

Psalms 17:3, 5, 7, 8, 15!

Outreach question pg. 195 (Overcomer workbook.. Personal enrichment literature)

Note to self… work on boundaries.  I have boundaries, but I believe I use them the wrong way. Not necessarily boundaries intended to keep one from drinking, smoking, etc… but boundaries, in general, to maintain my sanity… boundaries pertaining to interactions with those in the world, mostly… I’ve got no problem speaking up, but it’s the whole art of not making a situation worse that needs fine-tuning…

12:39pm

Short time before checking out of work… God is good all the time and it won’t be but a few minutes before going to school. Day is going well… need to tighten up on the house/apt. search, though… feeling hopeful, though. I’ma see what’s happening when I get off work. Thank YOu, Father for an open door.

9:20pm

Tonight is a night that I got a sincere impulse to do wrong… allowing myself to be tugged to making a withdrawal (atm) that I had no reason to make at all. It was after 8 p.m. Four times my card refused to be read… not because money was not available… but because a connection could not be established. (to bank)_….. Even when I let go Lord, You hold me up. Please forgive me and thank You for bringing me peace, or helping me receive it, rather.

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October 12, 2017

5:33am

Proverbs 12:3 – A man shall not be established by wickedness: but the root of the righteous shall not be moved.

Proverbs 12:10- A righteous man regardeth his beast- but the tender mercies of the wicked are cruel.

Proverbs 12:15- The way of a fool is right in his own eyes: but he that hearkeneth unto counsel is wise.

Proverbs 12:18- There is that speaketh like the piercings of a sword: but the tongue of the wise is health.

Proverbs 12:20- Deceit is in the heart of them that imagine evil: but to the counsellors of peace is joy.

Proverbs 12:23 A prudent man concealeth knowledge: but the heart of fools proclaimeth foolishness.

Proverbs 12:25 Heaviness in the heart of man maketh it stoop: but a good word maketh it glad.

Proverbs 12:28- In the way of righteousness is life: and in the pathway thereof there is no death.

Psalms 12:5- For the oppression of the poor, for the sighing of the needy, now will I arise, saith the Lord; I will set him in safety from him that puffeth at him.

Psalms 12:7 – But the Lord shall endure for ever: he hath prepared his throne for judgement.

7:48pm

Extremely moody at the moment… just swimming in trepidation…for real… I mean, I understand that life is not what it was and I am truly overjoyed… I’m sure of the work God has done in my life… but here and now I’ve just been a little anxious due to the changes in environment with work and moving out soon… God thank You for Your goodness, mercy, grace, and faithfulness.

 

October 11, 2017

9:32pm

Definitely passed bed-time-  but shower was mandatory… went to church straight from work, and home from there… Laying down now- and the time to start on speech is way past due… a speech that’s primary purpose (self-imposed) will be to exclaim of the wonderful things that God has done in my life. The speech must adequately thank each of the individuals who played a part in grooming me to be the man I am becoming. If I can manage to deliver two lines a day then I will be making better progress than I am today… it would be more than a truth to say I am procrastinating. So, I’ve stated all of this to say that I am setting goal to start tomorrow… HA! and long term goal of 1 week to have called at least three apartment places to inquire about housing… by this time next week. As for speech- that was a joke… tonight MUST be the night… and the lines:::  The preceding months that have acquiesced to today, transpired, people I’ve met, devotions we’ve shared, there is one undeniable-indisputable fact that justifies every decision that would never ever ever ever have been made under ordinary circumstances. Decisions that were ever so subtle beckoning to turn from any life I had ever known and being instilled with the courage to do so, pursue a new life- unlike that which I have ever known… that fact is the presence of love. Love from whom God is the origin and whom He is……..{{{{to be continued}}}}}

Thank You Lord Jesus, my deliverer and Savior- You have kept me, You alone- have pursued and protected me.

October 10, 2017

5:29am

Proverbs 10:7 The memory of the just is blessed, but the name of the wicked shall rot.

Proverbs 10:19 In the multitude of words there wanteth not sin: but he that refraineth his lips is wise.

Proverbs 10:25 As the whirlwind passeth, so is the wicked no more: but the righteous is an everlasting foundation.

Proverbs 10:32 The lips of the righteous know what is acceptable: but the mouth of the wicked speaketh frowardness.

5:48am

It’s almost that time [work]… the weather is ‘muggy’… mom used to say that all the time when we [kids] were younger… The ‘mugginess’ has certainly made for the best slip’n slides at work. (Mud everywhere). The jobs going to get done, today, God willing… Class at 6pm- today is going to be awesome. Thank YOu Lord for Your covering- Your armor and safety… discernment and wisdom.

October 9, 2017

5:30am

Proverbs 9:6 Forsake the foolish, and live; and go in the way of understanding.

Psalms 9:10 And they that know thy name will put their trust in thee: for thou, Lord, hast not forsaken them that seek thee.

Lord, I need Your grace, I need Your mercy. I am skin and bone and without You I can do nothing…. thank You for leading me in the Spirit by the Spirit… in wisdom in peace in truth… a servant – a priest- that will minister Your word and not merely my own interpretations… thank You for guidance and safety this day. Your grace is sufficient.

October 7, 2017

7:48pm

Thank You, for bringing me home Lord. You tell me and show me what’s good for me… I don’t always listen, but you never leave me… You want what’s best for me… I’m hardheaded and hardhearted like I just must touch the stove sometimes… Don’t let me live as one storing up wrath, Father… or forget any bit of what’s past–> all that I’ve come through… that You’ve brought me through… thank You for good health… thank You for a heart change… and determination also, conviction–>> to live a life worth living. Your will be done, Father. Thank You for helping me forgive others and myself. Thank You for the beautiful people that are part of my life.

October 6, 2017

11:59am

Too blessed, and that’s that… through the help of voc-rehab- I’ve secured half- a thousand dollars in tools… and I’m sitting here behind a desk at the house and I’m just shaking my head at this grace that I cannot understand or comprehend. God has just been so good to me. Like, when I’m at work posted up to learn from this guy at work who is literally trying to ‘figure me out’ and he says to me ‘that’s one of the big dogs right there’ as he nods to an individual who has marched onto the jobsite… an individual with a familiar swagger… believe it or not this ‘guy’ who has showed up is the head electrical engineer for his company and his company is who we are contracted under… essentially ‘my company’ is hired to do the work they need done… and this guy looks over to me and says ‘Hi, Corwin,’ Ha! Cause’ we go to church together Ahahahahah! I was rejoicing, heavy, in my heart because there are no coincidences and God is so good to His kids. The guy working with me says ‘How do you know him?’ and I was able to share with him that we go to church together… ridiculous crazy kinda’ blessed…

Thank You Father for Your plan, Lord.