Okay, ‘you caught me’… I’m sitting in the new Crown Vic’ aka ‘the Cloud’, and fitfully so… while writing this entry… The mentor who seen fit to don me with this vehicle is a generation and 3/4 my senior… (though he drives considerably faster than I do. Ha!) so in many ways he’s the best kinda’ old school… for real for sure, You can’t beat Old School values with a bat… the way he’s taken care of the car, certainly reminds me of my own grandfather (Opa)…
So, yea’, I’m sitting in the car– ‘cak’in’ on a Sunday… a/c is cooling the interior down, (I’m sitting here sweating, looking crazy, maybe, but I’m blessed, highly favored, and excited bout’ my ride… pshhh… I’m sitting on a cloud 😛 )
Thank You, Jesus, no joke no joke… and yea; I might be sitting in the ‘whip’ but don’t get it ravelled… my solace is in the Lord… Father… I mess up and say things I shouldn’t, I think things that are inappropriate… and pretty ghastly to say the least… thank You for deliverance… and the reality that… yea, I may be sitting in the sun in ‘my’ car… but yea’- may the car be sanctified, consecrated to Your work, and the fact that this devotional, and Bible are sitting right beside me never change.
Thank You for Your forgiveness, and sending the man to me, today, who shared with me a good report of that which he’s observed of me (as a young single man)… that inspires a rekindling in his own ministry…
Thank You Lord for Your kindling.
Please pray for the family of all those with family members stuck in the midst of addiction.
Just got word a brother and friend of mine who has been doing exemplary work in the field of disciple-ing men and “walking out” the faith was found dead this morning, (drug-related), after going out of town to visit his family.
This man had hopes, dreams, and a very bright future ahead of him.
He was not ashamed of the gospel of Christ.
For whatever reason, last night he made a fatal decision that cost him his life.
For all those struggling in addiction. You don’t have to live life alone. There is help and your life does have worth; more care for you than you know.
It’ll be louder in here, momentarily… my bros. will be home, fresh out of the church they visited tonight… I’ve just gotten home from the ‘OC:… the chapel was pretty much -full-… there was about 30 men there, and these 30 men are in their first 30 days of their program at the ‘OC’, and many of them took their first steps toward living lives devoted to Christ. Just to be present and see these things taking place, meeting new people, seeing the gratitude… it’s all a blessing in itself… seeing God working on the hearts of these men replenishes and refreshes my spirit…
There’s so much going to happen and so soon that I can hardly believe it. In time, I truly believe my life is going to take on a very different likeness than one I have ever anticipated…
Man… God is good. I had about a lb. of beef potted up, but realized I had no tomato sauce… I was ‘messed up’… Ha! After the thought dawned on me to check other cabinets around the house… I found some tomato sauce! I was so excited, so yea, we’re doing the spaghetti thing tonight! Yesss!!!
Thank You father for nourishment and life abundant and healthy relationships.
Good morning Jesus!.. Today is Saturday and the weather is absolutely fantastic… Fall is slowly but surely setting in and as old as I am (28), I can’t help but detect the nostalgia that is associated with the ‘state fair’ of my youth, fall festivals, and concerts (that I never attended, but always wanted to go to.) :), My past is undeniable, my future is uncertain, and today is unprecedented, but here nonetheless.
Lord, some days I write, for fear that I won’t (write)…some days, I write simply because You never said to stop…some days it’s simply because I have the ability to do so… If nothing more than proof of my existence and more importantly Yours… No matter what this life brings or what this world says, help me never forget Your words and promises to me… How that, ‘none of this is for no reason.’ Every cut, every bruise, chipped tooth, cracked bone, swollen lip, busted knuckle, cold night, wet night, strained muscle, broken relationship, moment of despair, of contrite wandering is for waste or mere points of reference… it is and always will be for Your glory. .. The spirit of the Lord God is upon me; because the Lord hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; He hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound. –Isaiah 61:1
Thank You Lord for every disciple/ servant that walked before us.
There is so much direction in my life, but I never waste a moment to ask myself why I do the things I do, or to consider the relationships in my life… my actions toward others.
As much as I’d like to say that I treat others equally and with an equal amount of respect… it’s become increasingly evident that no matter what I criticize myself for, at the end of the day I make the decision to do whatever I want… even as a blood bought Christian, I’ve willfully disobeyed God, and for lack of a better explanation… stared truth in the face and acted contrary to love and truth, disregarding scripture- disregarding Christ; all, while accruing a level of disdain for others who willfully do things that don’t agree with my spirit… Pshhh! what the hell kind of sickening, nasty spirit is that?! It is disgusting and I think I am more disgusted with that spirit than substance abuse (drinking, drugging, etc.) This pharaseutical spirit coupled with the burden of ‘trying’ to live ‘saved’ is not anyway to be running this marathon (life)…
Father, help me get small, ‘sweep da’ porch’, and come home from the ‘woods’… I need You, Lord, and it’s ONLY Your grace and mercy keeping me.
New day, new life, same price that was paid for my deliverance… Everything there was to give… this is the price that was paid for freedom… knowing that every one would not receive the gift of life, and all would not forsake their chains, and many would continue to live a vicious cycle of devotion infidelity toward Him; Christ still died for us. Lord, I’ve been struggling, and I know You know and see all things… I’ve tasted and seen Your goodness… thank You for helping me to be shaken of the sticky confines of sin…
There are so many, including myself, that have searched, and are searching high and low for love… that enduring love that promises ‘I am here, I will always be here for You.’ and there are sooo many imitators, so many alternatives that we yield ourselves to; the most notorious examples: sex, relationships (ungodly, dependence upon man/woman) reliance upon money for fulfillment, drugs/substance abuse… these are all imposters… all of their ends are death… there is no restoration in them… a seamless line of highs and lows with the promise of satisfaction that they will never deliver. To believe that your mother, father, brother, sister, friend, or closest relative can sustain you and deliver you into a lasting joy and satisfaction is an unreasonable expectation and that relationship can not and will not sustain the weight of that burden… It is the weight that only true Love can bear… true LOVE comes from God… for, God is LOVE… the greatest love is that a man would give his life for his friends… Christ died for us while we were, yet sinners. This is the only love that renews and is continually faithful in a perishing world.
Serving the Lord, loving the Lord… is unlike any experience I’ve ever known… it is both clear and yet shrouded in mystery… infinitely simple and extraordinarily complex… thank You Lord for Your faithfulness… mercy, and grace, and the understanding that I need You today; more than ever before.