Father God, I admit, these next few days will be intense considering the schedule change with the new career and all, but it all pales in comparison with what my friend’s family is going through. Lord, I pray I spend no time griping or complaining about anything… considering this marvelous opportunity You’ve granted me, despite my shortcomings, I know it’s because of Your Sn and His actions alone… thank You for showing me truth… instilling the perfect fear for You in my heart, that I don’t abandon the gospel.
Thank You for helping me rest and awaken to serve You first and utilize my occupation for Your good, Lord— thank You for the patience You’ve given me, and opening my eyes and ears.
Started this weekend off bumpy… struggling with the flesh…and everything that I spoke with the residents of the ‘OC’ about last night… I start work Monday and it’s like I’ve been just taking hits from all sides with the lust thing- I’m not living pure- and there’s nothing more debilitating than sharing the new found life God has invited me into knowing that I will at some point or another reach into a dark cubby-hold to pull a repeat of any number of imprudent behaviors. God’s shown me His faithfulness; time and time again… in spite of my ignorance, my lack of consideration, my selfishness…
So–I’m sitting right here at the house computer and I’m questioning some of those things that need to change… and I’m half nervous about starting work because I’ve never gone to work with the vulnerable frame of being that I will be going to start this career with… I don’t mean ‘flaky’… I just mean, without the attitude of having to be in survival mode… thinking someone is competing for my position and I’m gonna lose my job if I don’t give 100 percent more than the next guy… having a fear of being abandoned or discarded… but this simply isn’t the case, today… there’s support that I’ve never seen before… my steps are ordered– there is a future- there is a plan… which stinks all the worse when I willfully act according to the laws of sin… as a child of disobedience, rather than a child of light.
Good day, father, It’s Friday, and Your son has the afternoon off.. no class, no nothing, but I feel like I’m sposed to be doing something… go figure… Think I’ma change clothes and head to gym.
Spoke with a project manager, today, about my first day— they want me in the office- 5:30 am to meet a guy (DDubb) and that’s game-time, Father… help me to do those things this weekend that are pleasing to You that will prepare me for Day 1… I’ve not started this journey with You Lord for a mere job…This thing began with a pursuit of relationship with You, Father… You have come through in Your word and promises- more than I know… thank You for driving me to be faithful and hopeful toward the future. Thank You for cultivating me to be a loyal heat… a virtuous man… a man of integrity.
Okay, ‘you caught me’… I’m sitting in the new Crown Vic’ aka ‘the Cloud’, and fitfully so… while writing this entry… The mentor who seen fit to don me with this vehicle is a generation and 3/4 my senior… (though he drives considerably faster than I do. Ha!) so in many ways he’s the best kinda’ old school… for real for sure, You can’t beat Old School values with a bat… the way he’s taken care of the car, certainly reminds me of my own grandfather (Opa)…
So, yea’, I’m sitting in the car– ‘cak’in’ on a Sunday… a/c is cooling the interior down, (I’m sitting here sweating, looking crazy, maybe, but I’m blessed, highly favored, and excited bout’ my ride… pshhh… I’m sitting on a cloud 😛 )
Thank You, Jesus, no joke no joke… and yea; I might be sitting in the ‘whip’ but don’t get it ravelled… my solace is in the Lord… Father… I mess up and say things I shouldn’t, I think things that are inappropriate… and pretty ghastly to say the least… thank You for deliverance… and the reality that… yea, I may be sitting in the sun in ‘my’ car… but yea’- may the car be sanctified, consecrated to Your work, and the fact that this devotional, and Bible are sitting right beside me never change.
Thank You for Your forgiveness, and sending the man to me, today, who shared with me a good report of that which he’s observed of me (as a young single man)… that inspires a rekindling in his own ministry…
Thank You Lord for Your kindling.
Please pray for the family of all those with family members stuck in the midst of addiction.
Just got word a brother and friend of mine who has been doing exemplary work in the field of disciple-ing men and “walking out” the faith was found dead this morning, (drug-related), after going out of town to visit his family.
This man had hopes, dreams, and a very bright future ahead of him.
He was not ashamed of the gospel of Christ.
For whatever reason, last night he made a fatal decision that cost him his life.
For all those struggling in addiction. You don’t have to live life alone. There is help and your life does have worth; more care for you than you know.
So, uhhh… was kinda’ spinning circles in the house…walked upstairs…downstairs…upstairs…downstairs…feeling great! but just kinda’ walking around…picking things up…then putting them down… I’ve got just a few moments before rides pulling up to the house…and the newest addition to the house (member) and myself will shuffle out the door…to go to church. Sitting now at the kitchen table- occasionally glancing out the window to see my car parked out in the parking lot while “Don’ Hemi” (youngest bro) text me pictures of his nose that was recently operated on… stitched up and everything!! Not bragging, but brother has been through the Dawg-On ringer…
God, when it comes to renewal, You get the ‘TEN’ , hands down… cause’ I feel like I’ve lived at least, I repeat, at least five lives… and this one, by far, exceeds each of them. You’ve not only revived and renewed me but You’ve substantially increased my desire to have life and be content through and during any and all circumstances… perilous times will come, I’m sure… but we will endure, Lord… without doubt, without fear… You are Our God… Almighty.
Competition? Lord… I’m running… as if I was competing… and, yes, I make mistakes… I grab a weight, here and there, that I don’t even realize I’m carrying… but, Lord as ‘my trainer’ and coach and mentor and brother and friend… You are doing this amazing thing… Help me ‘cling’, Lord, to Your hand, Your garment, all of You.
Thank You Father for keeping us this far.. Thank You for our fellowship (in the house)… so many are suffering Father… not in addiction only… but all over, people are suffering from various circumstances… thank You for using us, Lord… helping us remain useable and helping us see things the way You see them, Jesus… thank YOu for the work YOu are doing in the hearts of my family, friends, and enemies… may my heart’s prayer be that none should perish.