My brother sits before me, strumming the guitar to some ole’ Creed song… we’re kicking it in the kitchen over some Klondike Bar/coffees… (my own invention! hehehe!) Today was a wet day (rain) but the job we set out to do (install doors) was accomplished (for the most part 🙂 )
Thank You Father for Your goodness to us… we’ve made it home safe and will be doing the Wal-Mart thing soon…
Funny, how I’ve made the subtle transition to ‘Wally World’ regular, from Wal-Mart will undoubtedly be base or is base for Martial Law preparations in America… <head-shaking>. I’m no longer bent on whether they are or not… but rather bent on the relationship between the Father and I…
Thank You Jesus for Your love in dying for us… and caring for us… and equipping us for impending persecutions and miscellaneous tribulations… Lord… help me stand with joy in my heart and praise on my lips even in the fires.
Thank You Lord for peace and unity, here, in the Southeast regions of the United States. Thank You for sustaining us during this time of preparation. Thank You for drawing our focus to You in this time. Thank You for clarity and being with the hearts and minds of the authorities and working in them to govern our nation accordingly. Thank You for removing doubt and fear from the hearts of the citizens, and for stability in our spirits.
Thank you ALL who are reading for your prayers concerning Irma. God bless you and your families.
Post-eclipse…update…everyone can see and one is suffering any noticeable side-effects from staring at the sun… my youngest brother’s surgery was a success, and we (HOH) guys have made it home safe from work… technically, we’re not home… some of us are setting up accounts to help us in our finances… (MatchSavings Program). Definitely an awesome opportunity for anyone who can qualify.
So, out here at the credit union I’m reflecting on some of those things I’ve spent money on in the past week… and keeping it real, nah– I wasn’t the best steward I could’ve been.. for real… literally, I could do better… Kinda’ like I hit the ‘on’ switch on Saturday (for spending money) and that money just kept getting spent… but for real for sure, I’m bout’ to hit that financial hibernation… not by my own strength, but by remembering where the money came from and that the money is for much more than mere enjoyment alone. It is all God’s money. Thank You Jesus for giving us my brother, today… (mishap in the Surgery Room… Doctor’s gave him an anesthesia that he has been allergic to… <head shaking>, they had to revive him… But God gets the glory in all things. Thank You for Your graciousness toward us.
Almost let today get away… (writing)
March 30, 2016 .. I began keeping a journal… not because I had to, not because it was cool, not because it was the right thing to do, but because there was a small pull in my heart to do so.. by any and every way possible, I gathered one motivation after another, to continue… if not for any other reason than because I was told to (internally).
Every day, logged, was not easy or convenient, but it took each of those days to get me to this entry, today. Writing and my committal to do so daily has certainly had an impact on those around me… and, though, I may never know the extent of ‘that’ impact… it is all good because the experience, thus far, has been invaluable… with the first entry.. August 20, 2017 had certainly not been thought of…and, yet, here we are, and here I am…
Thank You Lord, for helping me to set aside any/all weights that would beset me… thank You for helping me to rid myself of the skewed imaginings of my heart, that are self-seeking… and instilling in me a desire (renewed) to pursue you fervently. Your will be done, Lord. You are good to us Lord, Amen. Thank You for mercy and grace.
It’s that time again, made it through another day.. It’s been a good day. Mom and two of my brothers made a stop by the jobsite and showed us the fish they caught last night. The fish were massive… 10plus lbs., for sure. My brother (brother’s name here) birthday was today and it was good to see him… I don’t know that I’ve ever gotten him a gift or anything, but God seen fit to bless me with the ‘ends’ to share with my brother, today… that’s been a big deal for me… I want to be a brother to my brother, and I know money is not the measure of our hearts per say, but I was grateful for the opportunity.
Evaluations were also today… for the most part… so much grace has been extended to me… I mean, as skeptical and critical as I am of myself, my instructor’s constructive criticism is much less harsh than the voice of condemnation that springs up from my own flawed thinking.
Father, weigh my heart, try my ways, and remove every ill-thing, be it favored in my eyes or not.. remove it far from me.
Week is ending, day is done… got my Little Caesar’s… bro and I are kinda’ watching a show about some guys tracking wolverines… tomorrow morning we will be hitting some kind of river… where we will be kayaking… I’ve never been kayaking… and it sounds very exciting… we will all be going… a time where we can all kinda’ unwind… and stretch out a lil’bit…
Had an appointment today to speak with one of my counselors (through an outside organization); to discuss my ‘lack of chill’… That appointment was put off and yet to be rescheduled… I called and spoke with my counselor, (to reschedule) but there were some other errands that needed to be run… so hopefully, next week I can have the appointment rescheduled… and I’m belittling the crap out of the issue… I was tied up with the worst knot in my chest and stomach around 11am… it’s stress… I’m sure of it.. the ‘movie’ is starting now… but , yea- I need to seek God and yea’, I need prayer, straight up.
Yes, I most probably-definitely should have been asleep by now… Now that I’ve made it to my room, I’m calming my mind and relaxing, setting alarms, and music for the a.m… Tomorrow is going to be incredibly interesting. Thank You Lord for a good time… and leading me to the ‘Chill’, Father.
Vision-blurry (when looking long-distances, aging) Looking toward the LED clock of the cable box… we will be holding devotion shortly… used to be able to see stuff very well from this distance… must be getting older… 🙂 (what a blessing! 😛 )
Woke up this morning expectant of a ghost (from past) to text me… why I would desire that? Cause’ I tend to reach toward the foolish things when all around me is still and safe.. (making trouble…) The water all around me is still, so let me stand up in my ‘figurative kayak’ and rock it!!! <Rock-Rock-Rock> and what do you know…splash!!!!… I’m all Wet!!! That’s what the track record shows, but that’s not what it is today or what it’s gotta’ be… (but it gets those juices/emotions/tinglings/ ‘feel goods’, coursing through the veins).
Father God, forgive me for any lack of gratitude– thank You for refining me. Thank You for the breathe of life… thank You for the ‘re-direct’, helping me keep it real with myself, and not be ‘flaky’ toward You… help me NEVER EVER to settle… and to push with everything… where You are is where my life is hidden… help me live as such… rather than trade that for what ‘I wants and I thinks’…
Thank You for the desire You are fanning in my heart to seek You, knowing with every day, that You are moving me toward the future You’ve envisioned for me.