October 13, 2017


After spreading the cheese of brotherly love over the plains of his cinnaraisin bagel-¬† he pondered the road trip excursion he’d be making later that afternoon.¬†Amid restless thoughts of getting high, picking up a prostitute, and going to do a side-job that morning, to earn a few extra dollars… he pulled his bible close, for the early morning devotion he’s done every morning for more than a few months now. (((((note:::::book idea)))))


Proverbs 13:3- He that keepeth his mouth keepeth his life: but he that openeth wide his lips shall have destruction.

Proverbs 13:7- There is that maketh himself rich, yet hath nothing: there is that maketh himself poor, yet hath great riches.

Proverbs 13:15- Good understanding giveth favour: but the way of transgressors is hard.

Proverbs 13:17- A wicked messenger falleth into mischief: but a faithful ambassador is health.

Proverbs 13:20- He that walketh with wise men shall be wise: but a companion of fools shall be destroyed.

Proverbs 13:22- A good man leaveth an inheritance to his children’s children : and the wealth of the sinner is laid up for the just.

Proverbs 13:25- The righteous eateth to the satisfying of his soul: but the belly of the wicked shall want.

Psalms 13:4- Lest mine enemy say, I have prevailed against him; and those that trouble

Psalms 13:5- But I have trusted in thy mercy; my heart shall rejoice in thy salvation.

Psalms 13: 6- I will sing unto the Lord, because He hath dealt bountifully with me.


Thank You, Lord for safe travels, and a safe weekend. Getting me home safe.


October 10, 2017


Proverbs 10:7 The memory of the just is blessed, but the name of the wicked shall rot.

Proverbs 10:19 In the multitude of words there wanteth not sin: but he that refraineth his lips is wise.

Proverbs 10:25 As the whirlwind passeth, so is the wicked no more: but the righteous is an everlasting foundation.

Proverbs 10:32 The lips of the righteous know what is acceptable: but the mouth of the wicked speaketh frowardness.


It’s almost that time [work]… the weather is ‘muggy’… mom used to say that all the time when we [kids] were younger… The ‘mugginess’ has certainly made for the best slip’n slides at work. (Mud everywhere). The jobs going to get done, today, God willing… Class at 6pm- today is going to be awesome. Thank YOu Lord for Your covering- Your armor and safety… discernment and wisdom.

October 4, 2017


Proverbs 4:7- wisdom is the principal thing; therefore get wisdom: and with all thy getting get understanding.

Proverbs 4:13- Take fast hold of instruction; let her not go: keep her; for she is thy life.

Proverbs 4:15- Avoid it, pass not by it, turn from it, and pass away. (path of the wicked)

Proverbs 4:18- But the path of the just is as the shining light, that shineth more and more unto the perfect day.

Proverbs 4:23- Keep thy heart with all diligence; for out of it are the issues of life.

Proverbs 4:27-Turn not to the right hand nor to the left: remove thy foot from evil.

Psalms 4:3 – But know that the Lord hath set apart him that is godly for Himself: the Lord will hear when I call unto Him.

Psalms 4:4- Stand in awe, and sin not: commune with your own heart upon your bed, and be still. Selah.


Thank You Father for helping me get to work safe… for covering me and helping me abide in the light of Your presence.


It is way past my bed time. Very limited interaction with other guys lately- simply because of our schedules. I don’t see them much anymore at all… so that’s that, for now… I’m not happy about it– just cause’ something inside me keeps echoing that things don’t have to be the way they are, but that’s not true… I think everything is the way it is supposed to be. Thank You Lord for peace and patience.

October 1, 2017


Be delivered from the snare of the fowler… whenever I read this verse in the bible- I think o0f the frantic way that a bird would kick, scream, and fight to be delivered from an assailant or danger. This is not unlike the way I should resist temptation or evil… when the word speaks of God providing a way out I also see the bird as a good metaphor… in it’s wings… God’s way of escape is not always in the form of some extra mean or asset.. many times, if an inventory is made of self and circumstances, God may have already had us long outfitted or conditioned for the given test or trial.

Home from church, making lunch up for the week, chapel tonight, work tomorrow, legs sore as heck, right now, from workout yesterday… but that just comes with it… no pain no gain, :), but hilarious when I think abou thow in the heck will I be able to jump in and out of trenches tomorrow. Seriously need God’s help… I’m sure I’ll make out fine… there’s a speech I definitely need to put into work… I’ve been procrastinating… it will be read on the 14th of November, but for real- I need to start on it now… it will be read for family, friends, and all of my support… at my graduation… thank You Father for the words— the patience- and Your goodness to me… use me Lord… and help me remain useable.

September 30, 2017


In that semi/semi/semi frame of mind of reiterating and enforcing certain truths I know to be true.

Example A: You can not combat sin by sinning… example B: to continually toss and turn and struggle inwardly with the imaginations of sinning which, no matter how I look at temptations; I can say, I’m struggling and fighting, but if I do not stand up- take action by speaking against these things exalting themselves within me, I am simply flirting with disaster.

Woke up this morning for ‘workout’ and sex was all over me, calling my friend-girl was all over me, watching them videos was all over me; but you know how to make a real good day- long and miserable? and the weekend horrible, and make your work week suck?? Start it off with flirting with sin, go ahead and ‘do not’ get it settled in your mind that you are going to be identified with Christ, spend all day/night caressing the poison you will inevitably devour completely (first in part and then all at once)… then, go whipping yourself and charging yourself for every mishap that occurs throughout life for an undetermined amount of time, to your disobedience. sure is a horrible way to live… the sin will corrupt, steal, kill, and destroy opportunities, resources, livelihood, relations, and so much more than one can anticipate…

In the case of all that is disclosed above- let’s go ahead and lock it in for today… I belong to God- He is my brother, friend, Father, Lord, and Savior.

He wants what’s best for me, more than I do… His desire is that I experience the fullness of His glory, in time… He does not desire that I perish… He has not hidden things from me, but for me, and He loves me dearly… I can not please Him without having faith in Him and trusting in Him. Living out my own will and desires are not ‘trusting’ Him….

Living in sin and disobedience hinders my relationship with God immeasurably… and is a risk of novalue, whatsoever. Willful disobedience was never worth it, never will be… God is powerful, He is mighty, and will not allow me to be tempted above what I am able to bear in His Son… He will always provide a way out. Today, in this moment, I am setting aside all idols, and putting on my ‘blood-coat’ and proceeding to have an unhindered fellowship with the Holy Spirit *Boom!!* My bro in Christ just hit me up to swing through and kick it! (Help him with some things.) Praise God I didn’t impulsively skip town and make some other poor decisions.

September 29, 2017


I may never march in the infantry-

ride in the calvary, shoot the artillery-

I may never zoom over the enemy-

but I’m in the Lord’s army..

The other day, one of my brothers in Christ unearthed this song of encouragement and praise from my early childhood… it was a delight to sing it once again, after every trial and season of change… every valley… and the song is still here in my heart after all the years… but the value of the words and the understanding, comprehension is that much more broad… I can not explain it… who can? Our God takes care of us in a way no one will ever be able to ‘cover’ or explain as comprehensively as God Himself already has.

September 28, 2017


The voice of the Lord is powerful, the voice of the Lord is full of majesty.

Psalms 29:4


Another week is passed and has left my hair on end as it were a whirlwind had come about… it’s 8:25pm… I’m laying it down… there’s an imaginary turbulence meddling in my family that is more so in my head…. either way it’s making me sick… not even going to go ‘there’ right now… working has been great, over-all, new schedule- I’m still adjusting to…. had a cookout at the the jobsite with some plumbers…lately the topics of discussion have revolved around scattered bits of politics, eating people, and the history of people who did, and how companies hire their employees… by ‘lately’ I’m only speaking of the last two days, and yes, I did mean -literally eating people…. Going from and environment of ‘all people’ seeking relationship with Christ to ‘chance’ encounters with people who know the Lord has been one of excitement and anxiety… mostly because my finding myself in minor engagements/interactions I’m unsure how to respond to somethings… but I guess that’s why the word says to work out your salvation daily.