July 28, 2017

4:17pm

Speak to this heart, Father. Illuminate my life with the understanding of the scriptures… of Your love for Your children. Thank You for the opportunities we have to share that love with others. We don’t have to be ashamed. Thank You for liberating Your children from darkness and sin. If we fall, You help us to get back up. Thank You for the quiet moments we have to spend alone with You. Thank You for helping me get home today, safe.

There’s so much going on in the world, but thank You Lord for supplying the needs of Your children.

Brother, keep reaching out– continue to seek God’s face– seek Him and He will reveal Himself to you, and He will deliver you into a life anew. You will be as an entirely new person. A person who lives contrary to all that we have known, said, or done. Everything we have believed about ourselves will be dispelled, that does not glorify God.

Thank You Jesus, for good health, and the ability, and time to praise You. You alone are God, and know all things. Your will be done Father… thank You for making all this possible.

July 26, 2017

3:45pm

Brother, I want to help you. You see, God, He’s been so good to me. If you could see me today, you’d understand that I’ve been delivered… that, I’m all the way o.k… when I tell people, today, what was and who i used to be, they don’t believe it… but, believe me brother, as I am standing, as I am breathing… I tell you, there is indeed The God; not just a god… He is THE GOD!!! The creator of all things… and He does, does, does, love you dearly… He loves us… and yea, we’ve all got stories (so the common cliche’ goes) and I’ve not been there for your highlights or the lowest moments… but, I assure you that an ever-loving, ever-sovereign, ever-patient God was… Waiting for the ever-fated moment you’d ‘turn’ in your heart of hearts, from whatever design you’ve created for yourself, and seek that purpose for which you’ve been created.

God has life stored up for you unlike that you’ve ever-known… and I’m not selling anything my brothers (sisters)… this is no mere dream, or positive idea I’ve conjured up… Our Father who is in heaven sent His son to earth to die for you and I, that we may have life… not the temporal life which perishes, decays, and corrupts… but that eternal life with eternal riches of priceless value… rest and peace, clarity, fellowship, and oneness with the glory of God. We shall be like Him at His appearing. Amen. Hallelujah! Thank You Jesus.

July 24, 2017

Sidenotes:

Struggl’in with the same sins

like, hand back in the garbage can

reaching for a vine when I’m in the quicksand

but when I’m walk’in on da’ beach

I’m all bout’ mak’in up my own plans

energy depletin

losing my desire

for my life at all

cuz I got leaches tached’ to every vital organ

heart numb to instruction

property of the darkness governing

the air of the world the inhabitants

till’ Christ cracked the ‘ammonia’

under my nose

no longer froze in sin grip constrict’in

clarity com’in

the focus ensuing

the gospel renew’in

the path that’s been proven

the perfect lamb- walk’in- talk’in- and breath’in

beat’in down-

incarcerated- ridiculed

literally hated

for crimes not committed.

6:40a.m.

This morning, among other things, there are two things on my heart… the one is ‘It’s not all about me’… (though, I regularly fall into this delusion.) The second thought is ‘cancer’ is not not not winning! I wanted to shout this, during my morning (group) exercise… the guys in my group (don’t live with me) they had long faces and I felt sorrow over those who have passed, and are being hospitalized… chemos, dialysis, etc… and the familiar cloud, that I’m also ‘picking up on at my church; a cloud of sickness that comes with a sense of woe and seems like a submission of defeat, not a submission of a trust that brings life or joy… and Spirit inside me was saying, firmly, Chris is our King, our victory is Him, and cancer is not winning. Thank You Father, for promoting spiritually healthy thoughts, nourishing our spirits, and delivering us from hurt; within… we will be afflicted… but, it is ‘light’ it is temporal… help us not to question God in doubt… we will suffer persecutions, but it is working for us. Thank You Lord for taking thought of Your sins and daughters.

Closer to 9pm than 9:20pm:

We had a full day… wake up, F3, oil change, home, class, golf course (I’ve never been/ outside of times where I performed maintenance for the courses. Didn’t play today, I’m saving (can not afford golf to play golf, right now. But it was a good time nonetheless.)

We got home around 8pm, but I am worn ‘slap-out’ so it’s ‘pillow time’ Thank You Jesus for Your graciousness, liberty, deliverance, and working in the heart of my friend… (He relapsed a few months back, Lord… and so many shunned him and looked down their noses) Thank You for restoring him Lord and driving him to call me…and keeping him from giving up in pursuing You and drawing those to him who can actually walk with him and draw him out of the ‘cycle’ he’s triggered… Thank You for helping us all, renewing us, and giving us some momentum, Lord, thank You, I love You.

 

 

July 22, 2017

Short Meditation While Listening to: Swoope & Dreamslave

Simple is genius and

it’s always convenient-

when your focus is Son that God sent-

promotion of deliverance

I’m an OBD ant

no slant

or crooked stances

head up- comin atcha’

straight from da bowels and bladder

guard salvation from da soul snatcha’

He’s the I AM – the I AM

truth and life-

truth is I’m walk’in out-

manifested what’s inside

darkness looms to stomp me out

oppressive with the ‘Timmy’

but I don’t go nowhere by myself

got the Father with me…

Healthily uncomfortable

Lord purge me from a condemned soul

cling’in to Your holiness

illuminate me from my waywardness-

none of Your sons are cowards

or sprinters

their ranks run the mile

devoted soul- winners

teach me by Your Spirit Father

Our thirst quenched by eternal water

accumulate defense that does not falter

longsuffering;

we don’t shelter offense, or harbor.

June 19, 2017

3:59pm

Reflection: 

Proverbs 19:2– Increase learning, heeding wisdom, instruction… of which the origin is of God… not being so sure myself and own experiences but trusting in God’s will for my life.

Proverbs 19:3– My own wishes/desires, apart from Christ, distorts clarity in the way that has been laid out for me… if I am distraught with my own plans not ‘coming together’, is it not God’s plans that I am distraught with? Is it not God’s plans that are being ever-fulfilled? So if I’m fretting, is it not against the plan He has ordained?

Proverbs 19:19- A man of great wrath shall suffer punishment: for if thou deliver him, yet thou must do it again… (Note: Speak with director bout’ this ‘wrath’ and his thoughts on where it may be generated from… and if it can be addressed in another manner than how I am, currently.)

June 6, 2017

7:52a.m. (a.m. devotion notes)

Death will be no more.

Sin will be no more.

“Vampire” Christianity–>> people only want God (Jesus) for His blood.

Are you saved and know that you are?

God is for us,

not against us.

Sometimes….

“Shut up!!!” when the persecutions come. (Don’t be flippant….endure)

God is faithful, He will do it!

In Christ…

peace without anxiety

joy in spite of circumstances…

Abusive/oppressive parents??? (were they???)

*Don’t try to be a copy…

“You were born an original…”

“don’t die a copy…”

Kernel must die! ( John 12:24 )

*It’s not time to speak.

1 Corinthians– 2:9-10—->>Discerning of spiritual things.

The natural man can not perceive the wisdom of God.

mind of Christ (1 Corin. 2:16)

Are you natural?

spiritual?

worldly?

 

 

 

 

May 26, 2017

9:42pm

Today was one of those day where everything just kinda’ came together…. we had class… cleaned up the house, ran out to a gym class where teacher neglected to show up, kicked a few soccer goals, (admired the liberty and beauty that I am stumbling into…. 🙂   ) Today was magnificent in beauty… with the slight breeze…. the turf where we stood… the trees that did sway, the clouds that gently drift…

We (guys I kicked the ball round with) ran into one of the Senior grads… aka ‘veteran’ who invited us out to another park, where we would eat pizza and played tennis for a few minutes… It was getting late so we head-in…(home).

Looking back, none of this may have seemed so great, but to go through the day… any day and to not return to a lifestyle of addiction or willful disobedience… *phew*… By no means do I make these claims haphazardly or with that ignorant confidence concerning what surrounds me everyday… those opportunities to jump headlong into sin… and the flesh’s innate desire that does not subside with complacency… the burden is only lifted when I submit my hands to the authority of God’s will and seek Him with my whole heart.

The opportunity to sin is everywhere for all of us… but the opportunity to give God praise and glory is that much greater… God gives us the power to choose Him… over sin… the liberty to live contrary to the lust of the flesh…..

To choose Life.