September 9, 2017

7:19pm

Sleepy, sleepy, sleepy… and we ‘cooked out’ and everybody is ‘sitting’ somewhere, or lying down… Got out today and drove around just a little bit… oddly enough there was a doctor’s appointment (I’ve had scheduled forever ago.) I don’t think one individual (well, maybe a handful of peeps) were happy to be at work on a Saturday… nonetheless I was there getting a prescription for my feet… what can I say? Some days are itchier than others…

Any whoooo…after making the ‘drop at a nearby Redbox, I made my way home, and spoke to a few people concerning the hurricanes, earthquakes, and eclipse… it’s all so very much intriguing, and yet awful… but Lord– we welcome you. Thank You for helping us be at the ready… Help us not to strive toward those vain glories, but to eagerly await Your return. Family is good, the house is good- life is good- future is filled with a sure hope… and promise…

Thank You Jesus for moving one of the guys to get out there this morning, also… (for F3 work out) It was great to have someone else from the house to participate.

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September 6, 2017

9:47am

Transition… transition…status…update…smooth…it’s been butter…and yea, I understand it sounds corny… but that’s what this (transition) has been, and to be honest I’ve already been given ample opportunities to spit on everything God has done for me. (No shortages I assure you.)

My anchor is Christ and when ole’ shame and guilt work their way to me through any thoughts/actions I’ve done… then I shun them and turn from my wickedness and repent and seek God, not dwelling on the fears of failure- but on God’s goodness… His love for me- His faithfulness… His mercy and how much I want to be pleasing in the sight of my Father… when He sees me (always) thinks of me (always), I want it to be a faithful servant He sees.

6:02pm

Not going to spend a whole lot of time right here, right now; gonna be making my way to church soon… but I’m pleased to inform you… I was pretty much given the go ahead on my car as far as riding to class, church, and work… and it’s been pretty liberating… it’s not like I’ve never driven, but I’ve certainly never appreciated it… was always more concerned with the image I was seeking to portray… like, the All-American (worker man image) e.g. Budweiser…safety vest-gloves out the back pocket…right after work…6-pack–drinking–better have my food on the table ‘honey’ when I get home bullcrap, or the ‘green man’ (cannabis) with fresh newports 2/3 ounces weed in the trunk…listening to music- ridin’  round town ‘StOOpid’! Loaded gun under seat/trunk/glovebox, ‘Stoopid’!!! I needed Jesus…and I need Him even more today… thank YOu Father for my new career, Your love, my car, deliverance, wisdom, and understanding; You are the best.

August 31, 2017

6:11pm

My brother sits before me, strumming the guitar to some ole’ Creed song… we’re kicking it in the kitchen over some Klondike Bar/coffees… (my own invention! hehehe!) Today was a wet day (rain) but the job we set out to do (install doors) was accomplished (for the most part 🙂 )

Thank You Father for Your goodness to us… we’ve made it home safe and will be doing the Wal-Mart thing soon…

Funny, how I’ve made the subtle transition to ‘Wally World’ regular, from Wal-Mart will undoubtedly be base or is base for Martial Law preparations in America… <head-shaking>. I’m no longer bent on whether they are or not… but rather bent on the relationship between the Father and I…

Thank You Jesus for Your love in dying for us… and caring for us… and equipping us for impending persecutions and miscellaneous tribulations… Lord… help me stand with joy in my heart and praise on my lips even in the fires.

August 8, 2017

7:24pm

Yo, Praise God!! I’m all the way ‘up’ right now! Straight up! off the Spirit and life and blessings and God’s goodness… not bout’ to feel down— Let the whole church say, AMEN! God got me by the hand! Forward march! I’ma’ put my hands in the air, devil… I’ma clap my hands, devil! All for God’s glory! Father increase!!! May I be decreased… may the people see You! Who am I! For real! Who am I? To hold back my testimony? He brought me through every altercation, every episode of violence, any harm I’ve caused myself. You delivered me from every cloud of confusion, and every wind of unsound doctrine.

Lord, thank You for this vision, fueling the drive, lifting my head, pushing me, stretching me, pulling me for deliverance…For Your armies, here and coming, for the ‘body’ all parts, that are near and far.. how it’s all done, Lord? It could not be done… not without You, not without Your faithfulness… cause’ I was dead and gone Lord… You know all that I’ve neglected, all that’s never been told, and You died for us in spite of it all… Your kingdom come.

Jesus, the best is yet to come… I’m for real and for sure…I believe and agree.

August 6, 2017

1:14pm

Jesus,

May Your nae be glorified in the highest, in every nation, by every tribe. Thank You for the breathe in me, that You stood and died for… You were not afraid of the destiny for which You were called and created.. You had/have the power to lay down Your life, and to take it up. You did not falter at the cross… or waver… You embraced the will of the Father. Before I was born, You accepted me as Your brother and friend. You prepared a way for us, true, and sure… fearfully and wonderfully made we are… we are beautiful Jesus. You’ve given Your sons and daughters identity, and they truly are beautiful… You’ve blessed us exceedingly, Father… and i’m not talking about ‘the whip’ aka ‘the Cloud’… I’m talk’in bout’ the relationships that were dead, seemingly, beyond repair. I’m talk’in bout’ the purpose You’ve given us, the burdens on our heart for the lost and the broken; our drive and desire to serve You… The freedom granted us to shun drugs/alcohol (sin in general) and pursue Spirit driven lines. Thank You, Lord.

August 3, 2017

10:45pm

     It’s that time again, made it through another day.. It’s been a good day. Mom and two of my brothers made a stop by the jobsite and showed us the fish they caught last night. The fish were massive… 10plus lbs., for sure. My brother (brother’s name here) birthday was today and it was good to see him… I don’t know that I’ve ever gotten him a gift or anything, but God seen fit to bless me with the ‘ends’ to share with my brother, today… that’s been a big deal for me… I want to be a brother to my brother, and I know money is not the measure of our hearts per say, but I was grateful for the opportunity.

Evaluations were also today… for the most part… so much grace has been extended to me… I mean, as skeptical and critical as I am of myself, my instructor’s constructive criticism is much less harsh than the voice of condemnation that springs up from my own flawed thinking.

Father, weigh my heart, try my ways, and remove every ill-thing, be it favored in my eyes or not.. remove it far from me.

July 28, 2017

4:17pm

Speak to this heart, Father. Illuminate my life with the understanding of the scriptures… of Your love for Your children. Thank You for the opportunities we have to share that love with others. We don’t have to be ashamed. Thank You for liberating Your children from darkness and sin. If we fall, You help us to get back up. Thank You for the quiet moments we have to spend alone with You. Thank You for helping me get home today, safe.

There’s so much going on in the world, but thank You Lord for supplying the needs of Your children.

Brother, keep reaching out– continue to seek God’s face– seek Him and He will reveal Himself to you, and He will deliver you into a life anew. You will be as an entirely new person. A person who lives contrary to all that we have known, said, or done. Everything we have believed about ourselves will be dispelled, that does not glorify God.

Thank You Jesus, for good health, and the ability, and time to praise You. You alone are God, and know all things. Your will be done Father… thank You for making all this possible.