September 3, 2017

2:57pm

Okay, ‘you caught me’… I’m sitting in the new Crown Vic’ aka ‘the Cloud’, and fitfully so… while writing this entry… The mentor who seen fit to don me with this vehicle is a generation and 3/4 my senior… (though he drives considerably faster than I do. Ha!) so in many ways he’s the best kinda’ old school… for real for sure, You can’t beat Old School values with a bat… the way he’s taken care of the car, certainly reminds me of my own grandfather (Opa)…

So, yea’, I’m sitting in the car– ‘cak’in’ on a Sunday… a/c is cooling the interior down, (I’m sitting here sweating, looking crazy, maybe, but I’m blessed, highly favored, and excited bout’ my ride… pshhh… I’m sitting on a cloud 😛 )

Thank You, Jesus, no joke no joke… and yea; I might be sitting in the ‘whip’ but don’t get it ravelled… my solace is in the Lord… Father… I mess up and say things I shouldn’t, I think things that are inappropriate… and pretty ghastly to say the least… thank You for deliverance… and the reality that… yea, I may be sitting in the sun in ‘my’ car… but yea’- may the car be sanctified, consecrated to Your work, and the fact that this devotional, and Bible are sitting right beside me never change.

Thank You for Your forgiveness, and sending the man to me, today, who shared with me a good report of that which he’s observed of me (as a young single man)… that inspires a rekindling in his own ministry…

Thank You Lord for Your kindling.

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September 1, 2017

7:10pm

Your lil’ brother got a job today-

that will one day lead to a career-

long days, long nights-

spent pouring out tears-

no matter the destination

just desperate to get away from here-

here, being that place of solitude and isolation-

finding warmth in the lies that he’s in control…

he’s not in control

he’s suffocating his soul

choking out his livelihood-

cut off from the life source…

from the day he chose his own course and refused the lit torch-

showing him which way to go-

humbling his wayward soul… distracted by the usual-

why not be reborn ‘unusual’.

Cost you, like, nothing to what it cost Our Father everything…

dabble not in the darkness, concerned with the lesser things…

our affections on the heavenly…

Jesus pave the way for me…

do for them- what you’ve done for me

laboring toward eternity.

August 31, 2017

6:11pm

My brother sits before me, strumming the guitar to some ole’ Creed song… we’re kicking it in the kitchen over some Klondike Bar/coffees… (my own invention! hehehe!) Today was a wet day (rain) but the job we set out to do (install doors) was accomplished (for the most part 🙂 )

Thank You Father for Your goodness to us… we’ve made it home safe and will be doing the Wal-Mart thing soon…

Funny, how I’ve made the subtle transition to ‘Wally World’ regular, from Wal-Mart will undoubtedly be base or is base for Martial Law preparations in America… <head-shaking>. I’m no longer bent on whether they are or not… but rather bent on the relationship between the Father and I…

Thank You Jesus for Your love in dying for us… and caring for us… and equipping us for impending persecutions and miscellaneous tribulations… Lord… help me stand with joy in my heart and praise on my lips even in the fires.

August 30, 2017

5:09pm

So, uhhh… was kinda’ spinning circles in the house…walked upstairs…downstairs…upstairs…downstairs…feeling great! but just kinda’ walking around…picking things up…then putting them down… I’ve got just a few moments before rides pulling up to the house…and the newest addition to the house (member) and myself will shuffle out the door…to go to church. Sitting now at the kitchen table- occasionally glancing out the window to see my car parked out in the parking lot while “Don’ Hemi” (youngest bro) text me pictures of his nose that was recently operated on… stitched up and everything!! Not bragging, but brother has been through the Dawg-On ringer…

God, when it comes to renewal, You get the ‘TEN’ , hands down… cause’ I feel like I’ve lived at least, I repeat, at least five lives… and this one, by far, exceeds each of them. You’ve not only revived and renewed me but You’ve substantially increased my desire to have life and be content through and during any and all circumstances… perilous times will come, I’m sure… but we will endure, Lord… without doubt, without fear… You are Our God… Almighty.

August 29, 2017

12:14pm

Competition? Lord… I’m running… as if I was competing… and, yes, I make mistakes… I grab a weight, here and there, that I don’t even realize I’m carrying… but, Lord as ‘my trainer’ and coach and mentor and brother and friend… You are doing this amazing thing… Help me ‘cling’, Lord, to Your hand, Your garment, all of You.

22:22pm

Thank You Father for keeping us this far.. Thank You for our fellowship (in the house)… so many are suffering Father… not in addiction only… but all over, people are suffering from various circumstances… thank You for using us, Lord… helping us remain useable and helping us see things the way You see them, Jesus… thank YOu for the work YOu are doing in the hearts of my family, friends, and enemies… may my heart’s prayer be that none should perish.

August 28, 2017

5:20pm

Hallelujah!… Got resources… the Lord is blessing His children, the Lord is call’in His children! Gathering us under His wings. He would that none should perish… Every second is a blessing! Every mistakes been a lesson. I can hardly imagine a life where the Lord did not lay out things as plainly as He has… I mean… who saw this coming??? Not me… Had no idea I’d go from literally grating the remnants of heart I had on concrete and rubble, to a change of residence, to these relationships, to the growth (spiritual, physical, mental), the sensitivity, renewal, perspective on life that’s both profitable and progressive. The support is unreal… for real.

So, today, I found out that I’ma be getting on with the (DubbSquared) company… Hiring process (paperwork), Friday… (This Friday) my class is going to end just in time for the next class I need… bout’ the same time I’m starting work… insurance (auto) is gon’ be paid tomorrow by my own hand, (not without God making this possible), all the way up 6 months… and I’ll be in a car by Wednesday. No Joke!

9:50pm

Lord God, You are good to us… thank You for Your grace and mercy… thank You for helping us remember to pray… thwarting the enemy’s plan to divide the house.

August 26, 2017

7:31am

Good morning Jesus!.. Today is Saturday and the weather is absolutely fantastic… Fall is slowly but surely setting in and as old as I am (28), I can’t help but detect the nostalgia that is associated with the ‘state fair’ of my youth, fall festivals, and concerts (that I never attended, but always wanted to go to.) :), My past is undeniable, my future is uncertain, and today is unprecedented, but here nonetheless.

Lord, some days I write, for fear that I won’t (write)…some days, I write simply because You never said to stop…some days it’s simply because I have the ability to do so… If nothing more than proof of my existence and more importantly Yours… No matter what this life brings or what this world says, help me never forget Your words and promises to me… How that, ‘none of this is for no reason.’ Every cut, every bruise, chipped tooth, cracked bone, swollen lip, busted knuckle, cold night, wet night, strained muscle, broken relationship, moment of despair, of contrite wandering is for waste or mere points of reference… it is and always will be for Your glory. .. The spirit of the Lord God is upon me; because the Lord hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; He hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound. –Isaiah 61:1

Thank You Lord for every disciple/ servant that walked before us.