After 12am (very early)
It’s extremely early in the morning… I’m binging on soda, sweets (lil debbies), and movies. Started at 7something pm yesterday… I’ve drank at least 6 Pepsi, eaten at least 8 oatmeal creme pies. Watched movies: meet the Blacks, Batman vs. Superman and just started Hardcore Henry.
—Same day 10pm–Exactly
Just making it back to bed at the center… Last night and today told me a lot about my walk with the Lord… more than I care to engage at this time… one observation I’ve made can be summed up in the verse that speaks of that man’s faith which is small in the day of adversity/temptation… I’m afraid that in the day that I meet the Lord, He will surely reveal all that He sought to bestow upon me, and how much sin robbed me. Being away from the center helped me understand exactly how much I hate sin… it will take and take and take and take and I hate the nature within me that wants more and more… an emptiness so hollow and void… nothing can satisfy… this weakness (emptiness) is our strength in christ… it is that which tears us away from each other and also unites us.. (people)… I used to think I had to be alone… that no one understand me at home, but this is not true… Christ is our comfort by His Spirit and that which makes us whole.