Devotion: The “Seemingly Hopeless” become models of the grace of God. (Book: Resist the Powers) god chooses the foolish things of the world, to confound the wise.
Scripture meditation: Luke 14:25-31 – Pertains to rejecting all- surrendering my life as part of this world and continuing in Christ, where He would have me go; the requirements for being a disciple.
Not feeling discouraged, but a little weak. Physically my throat is aching, and I’m tired (very). I don’t feel super bad or anything though. Just my throat…
Thoughts were harassing me a little; thoughts of using after an extended amount of time. Thoughts were coming at me, like, “you need to just go ahead and leave now because you don’t wanna stop using. You can’t leave the women alone or the drugs. You’re never gonna get it together.” Then, I read this verse while waiting for choir to start… Luke 31:24- Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart, all ye that hope in the Lord. This verse is very reassuring, concerning courage… if I have courage, there is little room for doubt. How can I continue in faith if I am doubting my future, and if doubting my future, am I not doubting God?